please someone explain/teach me or hand me a good tutorial.
i've been trying forever now and it still looks spastic and i want to fingerboard like all the cool kids do.

i'm sure mine look shitty too, but the principle was pretty easy with a simple trick.
place your back finger in front of the tail, right on the truckbolts. then take your index finger off the board and simultaneously, move the back finger to the tail, pop, and move your whole hand forwards.

i can't noco when i leave my back finger on the tail, but the position change in the last moment made it sooo much easier, at least for me.

no idea if tutorials mention that already...

I used to have a similar problem with them, i used to just pop the tail really hard and and put my finger off and hope it didnt spin like an impossible or just fly away.

The key to doing them super quick and having good control over them is to place your front finger down right before you pop it and then while your popping it, put your front finger back on really quickly and finish it like a regular ollie. Its extremely tricky to figure out and get them right, but with enough practice they get easier and easier. It took me a solid week to get them every try, but now i can do them into anything just as easily as an ollie.

Hope this helps

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